It Is a Process

hallo bloggerland
i'm so tired  this week. so many troubles i found. sometimes i ask to God, ''God, why life is hard to through?'' and i believed that God said "Because this is a process" ya, maybe that was an answer from God. maybe.

ok it was felt getting hard when the teens viruses (galauness) attack to me. what the................ *tuuuuuut*
my Best galauness in this week is at the yesterday, friday precisely. u kno why? oke, its start from thrusday night's effects. i was sleeped too night without a nape in the afternoon, so i feel so sleepy in the morning. it's bad. why? cause i hate to starting my day with i deep sleepy smile -_-

oke, my mood get better after it. and the second accident is, when me at school. it was when first hour in school, when physics subject. itsooooooooooooooooo badly! when i kno my physics's test score just *****. urgh so far from what i predict before. and i was got down because it-_- poor me. more, when mr.fahmi said that no any chances for students who got <75 of score's test to get sains's class in the next grade. altough i kno that just hoax. there was many chances if we get the max score in the next test, right?

physics done, next lesson is sinematografi. and it was alright. no problem i found here. and the bells was ringing, it's break time. me and sissy straight to canteen. i want to buy a spaghetti. but i not found my money. i remeber that i put it in my bag. but i found any money there. ok, i was try to have positive thinker.  may be i let it in my room, and i forgot to bought it. yes, finally i borrowed sissy's money.

bells ringing again

it's time to math. and mrs.indah told about math's score in last test. most of my classmate have the very well scores. i hope me too. but, when i get my score.........................................oh no
i'm just get a new remedial's subject. i've dark mind, i'm tweeting the whole lesson. i was attacked galauness. i felt so useless. oke, i kno it was over. i relized it 'lebay'. i've been get more remedial when i'm in jhs former. but i can't pretend that i'm ok when i and everybodys knows it. so useless. galau. and i'm tweeting about the pain i felt inside. and the most silly thing i said on my timeline is.............. i-tweet-that-i-wan-na-die. stupid!

not stop right here, when i was arrvd home, i immediately checking my money. and u kno? no money left in my room. wow amazing! wht thats meant? it was meant that my money got LOST!oke good, i just lost a half of my pocket money for next week -_________________-"

i felt so down that's day. stupid,silly,useless,and arjkhehyhhidinhciq! i hate it all. dissapointed. and finally i realized it. back to first sentence in this post ''it just a process'' well, ya i kno the whole my life is a process, including yesterday. but idk it was a process to gettin better or a process to gattin worse LOL